There is always a boat...

 "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope."
                                                       Jeremiah 29:11


I admit life can be a little challenging at times, especially now when things seem so abstract and vague. It is even possible that you feel forgotten or even taken for granted for your work. I think we are in the same page because lately that is how I've felt and it really does take an effort to believe in yourself and actually believe that you are capable of doing amazing things. I don't know what talents you may have or how many languages you may dominate but during the course of my college life I've learned one thing, we are MORE than what we expect.

This semester has probably been the most exhausting semester in my entire career (well so far, sigh), Im constantly drowning with essays and short stories (that is without counting work and church responsibilities). Everything that is happening in my life has overwhelmed me to the extent that sometimes I want to quit because my diminished brain (that is sometimes drained with worry) tells me that I am not good enough, that I should probably just face the fact that I'll never get to where I want to be (as in becoming the next extraordinary dazzling charming writer&&songwriter of this era).

A professors once suggested that i should stop using vague language in my writing (that is why I probably utilized "vague" in my first sentence subconsciously, sigh). The first time my professor told me that, gosh it stabbed my inflatable pretty boat and I began to drown in sorrow (and many many many tears, sigh). It happens. As days passed and I prayed constantly trying to figure out my purpose I began to realize that maybe he was not mistaken that my language tended to become vague, so, why not perfection it to a more elaborated language that can signify more than just words.

My point is the following: You may believe you are not good enough, that others are better (because their english is more sophisticated or whatsoever) or that you simply cannot do anything right, I think those moments are the most important ones because that's when you are more vulnerable and either you break or you just build up, just like Jenga (but you don't seem to fall even when pieces are taken out from within). Those simple negative words that a professor told me one afternoon outside of my classroom were the ones that now have been supporting me incredibly. Take negativity and transform it into something much more (ooh and its not even Tuesday, hahaha sorry back to focus).

So next time you feel like things aren't heading the right direction just begin paddling even if you are going against the current and soon you will find your island, just like I will find my own. I pinky promise:)